stop waiting

Why do you wait to get the answers from other people?  When you already know the answer.  Why do you wait to respond to something that is out of integrity with who you are?  Why are you waiting to forgive those that have wronged you?  Why do you wait to be the powerful you?  Why do you wait to take a stand for truth and light and just follow others?  You know better, so stop it.

This is not a beat up stick.  This is an unconditional loving reminder that you are holy and called of God to do the work.  You are chosen to do God's work because you want to.  Your heart longing seeks the truth, to know the truth and live the truth.

STOP WAITING!!!  Stop waiting for everyone else.  I get where you are at and you are healing a broken heart.   As you continue to heal, the shackles will fall at your feet.  You will create emotional and spiritual freedom for yourself, generations to come and generations that passed on.  Do the work that feels difficult.

Prepare a space that is safe for you to BE.  Prepare a space to be your sanctuary.  Prepare a space so that others may also feel and experience peace, healing and heaven on earth in that space and in your presence.  That they will know by being in your presence, they are also in the presence of God.

Namaste

darkness of a new beginning

Seven years ago:

My life spiraled out of control.  I struggled to find any hope and light in my life for about two years.  I made choices that resulted in chaos, confusion and pain in my life.  I have few fond memories and feelings of those years.  During that time I experienced "good" friends excluding me from hanging out.  I know there were times friends did this on purpose and other times they forgot to invite.  Even more than the hurt of being excluded, I felt God had abandoned me.  To describe those two years in simple terms, I was living in a dark abyss, hurting and in turn hurting others.  To this day, I still experience moments pained by the hurt, chaos and confusion I created those six and seven years ago.

I am grateful to know now, God never abandoned me.  I abandoned God.  Earthly angels came into  my life who gave me unconditional love, friendship, joy, laughter, peace and brought hope back to my life.  These angels saved a human life, mine.  Thank you Emily Dent, Shauntel McAffee and Rhianna Missman for shining your light.

Present day:

Hello darkness.  We know each other well.  It looks to me you have returned to teach another lesson.  

What I know now about these dark moments, days, nights and weeks of my soul is that this time it's not the results of choices I made and I am not creating chaos and confusion.  This darkness is about letting go of my past, forgiving myself, forgiving others, healing, trusting the process and trusting God so that I can live in the NOW.

Dear Darkness, thank you for returning.  Without you I could not have a new beginning.  Because of you I know God is always with me, guiding and loving me. Love, Carolina.

Namaste

what does namaste mean?

Namaste is commonly associated with yoga, but this can apply to all of us as we choose love, truth, light and peace in our lives.

Namaste.

sympathy? not so much!

Dearest friend,

Your husband was diagnosed with acute leukemia this week and I almost offered you my sympathy. I almost said the words to you that I hated hearing myself: "I'm sorry" or "that's horrible" or "that's tough" etc.  I didn't because I remembered my own journey with cancer.

I discovered within myself courage; that life is beautiful in every moment; trust in my Creator; trust in myself; my spiritual strength; I can do hard things; spiritual healing is a choice; by opening my heart to loving myself and receiving God's love for me I am healed.  This was and still is my experience with cancer.

You are on your own journey.  I will walk beside you and love you, but you are the one that has to walk it.  In your darkest moments remember "Peace be still and know that I am God."  I am excited for you and Houston and to see what you create.

Love always,

The 2x Cancer Warrior

Namaste