Tuesday, December 18, 2012

accountability

There are a few relationships in my life that I always seem to be in conflict with.  I care deeply for these individuals, but it always feels as though there is a breach or we're clashing heads.  The energy I experience around them is they expect life to be or look a certain way; whatever I do, it's never good enough; I always feel like I am doing something wrong; and most of all, it's not safe or okay to be who I am.

I'll be honest, I've had moments where I've contemplated eliminating these people from my life because of the frustration, anger and hurt I felt.  I believed that would be the answer to my problem.  But. . .

I opened my heart to learn lessons that keep reappearing in my life.  Lesson one: I am accountable for my feelings, emotions, reactions, how I choose to interact with humanity, choices and even the things that just happen to me.  Lesson two: I know my spirit influences and affects each individual I interact with; and I am accountable for the energy I bring in their space.

When I choose to be hurt, angry or blame I am creating limitations that confine and hinder my relationships and myself.  I ask God and the Light to assist me in releasing my pain so that there is space for more love, forgiveness and healing.

Namaste

4 comments:

  1. i love this post! it is hard to navigate negative feelings in a relationship... i'm trying to do so myself! so glad you stopped by my blog :)

    -Emma
    chasingtexas.blogspot.com

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    1. I love hearing and reading stories of other people. We all have something to say and share.

      I love reading random individual's blog. You are one of them and I have enjoyed it very much.

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  2. I love this post. There were many times where I felt just like this too, but realized that only I can control how I feel in the end. Some people, however, must be elimintated to better your own lifestlye for they are always bringing others down. I learned this the hard way.

    I'm glad I came across your blog. I'm now your newest follower via greader! I look forward to more of your posts. :)

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    1. Thank you Michelle. I love writing and sharing what I am learning and how I grow emotionally, physically and spiritally. :)

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